What does Blue Wind mean when he says thst Matt Stretton "wishes he

Blue Wind gained experiences of an old man in just a few years. He was able to view outside himself and see the big picture. I think it is amazing how the author describes vividly, but simply the living conditions Blue Wind experienced. Going back and forth from the reservation to the suburban school gave him a perspective that those with more privileges may not have had.

Blue Wind sensed that Matt was someone who was looking to be anything but who he is. He wished he had real perspective. Matt was as much a victim of his environment as Blue Wind, but made a choice to run from who he is, unlike Blue Wind who embraced who he is. Blue Wind had been able to roll through great, true tragedy and Matt had never really lost anything irreplaceable in his life. Blue Wind knew the difference and recognized that Matt yearned to feel anything real and was willing to fake it until he did.